Harper Harper Kindness I want to tell the story of our sweet Harper Kindness. I don’t know how to begin telling the story of yet another sweet little one that we weren’t able to
The Dialectics of Mom Guilt In case you didn't know, I'm a psychologist who specializes in Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). My favorite part about DBT is that these skills are helpful for everyone, and I use them every
Riley Post IVF Transfer #2 - Where Are We Now When You don’t move the mountains I’m needing You to move, When You don’t part the waters I wish I could walk through, When You don’t give the answers
Riley Naming Our Little Love We chose to name both our first three babies that we lost through miscarriage, Avery Miracle, Hayden Promise, and Hadley Hope. It was important to us to cherish the lives God gave us,
Riley Recovering... Slowly My recovery was slow and with many bumps along the way. I developed several complications post-op: insomnia from the anesthesia, a thrush infection from the medications during surgery, and GI difficulties from the
Riley Not Alone I am not alone, I am not alone You will go before me You will never leave me I Am Not Alone by Kari Jobe Even during very difficult physical and emotional times,
Riley Post-Surgery The surgery went very well, but took longer than expected due to a surprising turn of events. The doctors found that the baby had implanted in my left fallopian tube - oh, you
Riley Week 6 On Friday, February 26, I was six weeks and one day pregnant. We had just had amazing news from the doctor the day before, and I was still giddy. Friday is always "
Riley Choosing to Tell Our Family Evan and I have always chose to tell our friends and family very early. In a previous blog, I explained our views on telling our friends and family like this: Call me old-fashioned,
Riley Are We Pregnant? We had been counting down the days until we could find out if the embryo had implanted, and if we were officially pregnant. It was extra special that my parents and brother happened
Riley Transfer Day! Transfer day is the most magical day. It is the first opportunity that you get to see your little love, and you are seeing your baby so much earlier than you normally would
Riley IVF Transfer #2 IVF starts with stimulating the ovaries to harvest eggs that will be used during fertilization. We had the harvesting done in July, 2015. We chose based on our beliefs about life to only
Hadley Post IVF Cycle 1 - Where Are We Now We have had a lot of life change in the last few months. In July, we began our first IVF cycle, and found out we were pregnant. In August, we found out we
Hadley Love Poured Out The Lord really lavished his love on us during this time. He was there in the waiting, in the stillness, in the decision-making, and in the gut-wrenching tears. I am so grateful for
Hadley Naming Our Little One We chose to name both our first two babies that we lost through miscarriage, Avery and Hayden. It was important to us to cherish the lives God gave us, even if we could
Hadley Miscarriage Spotting is every woman's worst nightmare during pregnancy, and it is very common in early pregnancy, especially with IVF, and unfortunately, I started spotting. After talking with the IVF nurses, they determined that
Hadley Telling People Call me old-fashioned, but I refuse to let infertility steal away the joy of surprising my family and friends with the news that we are PREGNANT! So, I may still go a little
Hadley Finding Out After a few weeks of Evan being so adorably over-protective of me (telling me to be careful, to not stand, to not move too fast, all out of fear that I would "
Hadley Transfer Day Words actually cannot describe how special this day was. On Day 5, we were given the news that we had 2 healthy embryos, as well as 3 that were getting an extra day
Hadley IVF Cycle 1 IVF starts with stimulating the ovaries to harvest eggs that will be used during fertilization. Typically in IVF, the goal is to harvest and fertilize as many eggs as possible. Due to our
IVF IVF Blessings - God is in Control We have had so many blessings already in our IVF process, where God has shown us that His hand is on this entire process. After being told that our insurance authorization would take
Hayden Where Are We Now So, now it's the end of June and it has been two months since we lost our precious Hayden. We are still grieving for Hayden, and for Avery. We actually lost Hayden on
IVF How We Chose IVF How we got here There have been several times during our journey of infertility where I wondered — Will we have to do IVF someday? Will we ever be able to have children someday?
Hayden Naming Our Little One We chose to name our first baby that we lost through miscarriage, Avery. It was important to us to cherish the life God gave us, even if we could not keep Avery with
Hayden Love Poured Out I wish I could describe all the way God demonstrated his love for us through our friends and family during this process. We had people pray for us and with us. We had
